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Yesterday I was chilled, it's almost Christmas and my hubby and I managed to catch our first quickie in years. All was good.

Today, dear friends, my hubby was made redundant. Two weeks before Christmas. The Bastards.

I had to be in work today because of two very important meetings. The first went brilliantly and I came out flying.... to find 4 missed calls from hubby. I was gutted thinking my son might be ill. Sadly when I called hubby the truth cut through me like dagger.

"I've been made redundant"

I welled up and didn't know what to say, I was standing at my desk ready to go out for a drink and I felt like the world had just opened up beneath my feet. What do you say? Everything had been coming together for us. New house, my promotion, trying for a baby. Suddenly I'm left wondering where the money is coming from in 2 months time, should we still try for a baby and more than anything... how the hell do I tell my mother!

I then had to go into the second important meeting of the day. The client was a little pissed off because we haven't delivered on a few things. Usually I'd take this kind of thing in my stride, push back a bit, but instead I felt like I was underwater. Everything around me was floating and my responses were muffled. It wasn't me at all, I wasn't in the room, I was floating above them, but my mind was somewhere else. I hope the way I handled the meeting won't have bad repercussions for me. I don't think it will. I just have to hope that what we've said we'll do in the next month gets done. It's just hard when everything seems to be going so well at work and home and then two shit things happen on the same day.

Hubby is being amazingly positive, he's talking about a portfolio career, which, if it were to come off would give us the flexible life style we've been dreaming of. In the worst case, I'm left as the breadwinner, pregnant and unable to take much maternity leave. Life is never straightforward is it, but I guess you have to take what ever the hand of fate throws at you and make the most of it. I just wish it wasn't two weeks before Christmas!

It's funny, for all my professing about how women should have the same opportunities as men and how dare people suggest that it's wrong that I might want to be the breadwinner and have a stay at home husband... when push comes to shove and that concept becomes reality, it's bloody terrifying.