Monday, 12 April 2010

Trying not to think about it...

I've just logged in and read "Cautiously Optimistic" By Diary of a Yummy Mummy.

I am not going through IVF in the way that she it, but the way she describes the two week wait before you take a test has to put a knowing smile on your face:

Dear Patient, are you ready to think of NOTHING else for the next 14 days, other than your upcoming pregnancy test? Are you ready to almost completely lose your mind leading up to what is going to a) be one of the most exciting days of your life, or b) one of the biggest letdowns EVER? Are you prepared to spend the next 14 days convinced that you are pregnant? The fact that you are constantly exhausted, well that is either a sign that your are pregnant or is more likely due to the fact that you gave up those lattes cold turkey last week. Are you are nauseous 24/7? Don't bank on that being a little baby in there, more likely you may be coming down with the stomach flu. Oh, and your jeans are tighter? Please don't think that is anything more than the fact that we have forbid you from going to the gym for the past 2 weeks and since you are banking on getting pregnant I'm sure you have been stuffing your fact with anything in sight. Sore boobs, back, etc. Come on, please don't read into this, don't your remember that you are still stuffing your body full of hormones on a daily basis? Yes, you should still hold out hope, but please desperate baby crazed woman,  don't blame us if this didn't work. Oh, and best of luck to you.

This is what I go through EVERY month.... I am feeling fat... but that's because I have eaten a small chocolate mountain since Easter.... I'm peeing lots... but that's because I'm drinking more to stay healthy.... I'm feeling tired... but that's because I'm working too hard and trying to do too much.

Am I pregnant? I don't know.

Will I get it out of my head until I do a test? No. Not for more than a few minutes.

Will I get over it if I'm not pregnant this month? Eventually.

So, I will keep going, day by day, hour by hour and see what this month brings.

Fingers crossed [again] and thank you Diary of a Yummy Mummy, for bringing some humour to it all. x

1 comment:

Robin M Anderson said...

As much as the waiting sucks it's nice to know I'm not alone. Best of luck to you! Many many many fingers crossed for those two little pink lines for you!

What happened to the days where people just drank too much wine and 9 months later a baby just popped out? I guess that is so two years ago!

Glad I could make you smile, and again my sincerest of best wishes for you and your soon to be growing family.

xoxo

robin