Stress

This week has been another really tough one at work and I'm feeling stress like I've never felt it before. I can actually feel physical pressure in the middle of my chest like something is pushing down on me, it makes it harder to breath. I seem to get like this when I leave the office with lots on my mind, or when I'm in a situation that frustrates or angers me. The stupid thing is that usually it's nothing important anyway.

I keep having to say to myself that I NEED to relax: what ever it is that stress does to stop conception, it's working. It's not like I'm a doctor, working on life or death cases on a daily basis..... I work in a bank; if I screw up no one dies.

My issues are two fold and they're so vain it's almost embarrassing to write down:

1) I'm a perfectionist, so I am never good enough for myself and no one is ever good enough for me.

2) Basic human nature: I want people to like me. If I think they don't then I tie myself in knots worrying about it.

Both of these issues came up today and that's why I'm so stressed.

It's a family day tomorrow though and hubby has made me promise to restrict Blackberry use to try and de-stress me.

Deep breath: we'll see how it goes!